Pondering the Value of Life vs. Legacy

Some two years ago, I watched a video of some men taking sledgehammers to statues built by workers who were dust and forgotten millennia ago.  My first thought: These people need to be stopped.  My second thought: These souless people need tKellsFol292rIncipJohno be put down lest they destroy anything else.  And  my third thought: Why am I getting worked up over some statues and tablets when people are being slaughtered?  Good point.  Of course, I have been getting incensed at the executions, the torture, all the brutality done in the name of some version of God or another.  So then I ask myself how one hold the loss of an artifact and the loss of a human life as in any way equal in tragic value.

Here is what I came to.  Each unique human life is of immense importance so long as it continues. Life is finite, and when it ends, it’s gone.  Some lives leave a legacy.  This may be found in children, friends, or students that the person affected during life.  When a person has gone beyond memory, there are physical objects – objects of art, things crafted – a book, a bridge, a violin, a vase, a map – these are relics of legacy.  Time first steals our memory, then works to destroy other legacies.  Libraries burn; buildings decay or are torn down; moth and rust and misfortune tear away the heirlooms of the dead –the inheritance of the future.  Age and rarity makes these relics more valuable.  A paperback may be so worthless as to end up in the free book bin after one read.  But what is the worth of the first run of Walden? Or a book printed by Gutenberg?  Or an Anglo-Saxon letters scribbled on a scrap of velum?  Or lead sheets with Roman lettering, or Demotic on papyrus, or cuneiform on accidently-baked clay?  What about paintings on a cave wall?

Such things, the legacies of the forgotten generations, are truly humanity’s heirlooms, and as valuable in their way as the more direct and tangible wealth of today – land, water, and so on.  Both the present lives and those legacies of past lives must be defended from those who see the value in neither.Vallon_Pont_d'Arc_banner

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Corona Pilgrimage

Yes, I’m one of the multitude, one of the Pilgrims of the Occultation.

I mean, I’ve seen photos and videos.  I know the mechanics of it.  But I decided that I would regret it if I didn’t make an effort to see it.

Total eclipse of the sun.

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I experienced a partial eclipse, back in the 80s.  We schoolkids watched the dappling on the ground assume crescent shapes, saw the air grow dim but the shadows stay sharp.  Now, in 2017, we’d get the chance to see all but 3% of the sun obscured by the moon ­– directly, thanks to the safety glasses we now have available – by just stepping outside. But here was a chance to see the full monty, close enough to drive to.  Even better, I could make a memory with my son: an adventure to see a rare celestial event.

So I spent some of my leave time, and cashed in a chunk of my wife’s goodwill.  The young’un got permission to skip some classes. Avoiding the reportedly snarled interstates, we headed towards the line on the map which marked the center of totality.  Along the way, we passed small congregations gathered at crossroads, pecan groves, and church parking lots, armed with tents, coolers, grills and the occasional telescope.  We were a bit north of Saluda, SC, when the moon began easing across the solar disk, so we turned off on a side road, then again on a dirt road,  parking at a woods road across from a pasture.  Out came the eclipse glasses, first thing; after confirming that the event was definitely underway, we broke for lunch.  That’s the thing about partial eclipses.  Direct observation requires special equipment, and the event occurs at a snail’s pace.  For the next hour, we watched the landscape and donned our cardboard glasses every ten or so minutes.  Yes, the sky got darker, but not as much as you might expect given the waning sliver of sun.  The August breeze took on a hint of late September.  Off in the distance, chainsaws continued their droning, for “working can til can’t” doesn’t take eclipses into account.dim field

The many puffy clouds that dogged us all the way north pulled back like a curtain in the final minutes leading up to totality.  We both stood and watched as the sun vanished by increments. The last ragged sliver vanished, and the glasses came off.

A partial eclipse is an interesting phenomenon.  A total eclipse is something altogether

Note the prominences in the lower right quadrant

different.  I knew it was coming and what it would look like, but like so many things, being there and merely seeing a photo are very different things.  It was more than a pale circle, it was a striking ring of white fire set in a black sky.  It was beautiful, it was riveting, and without the benefit of knowledge it would be utterly terrifying.  I can see how the event would have been a frightful portent in ancient times.  On this day, it elicited an exclamation of wonder from the jaded teen – certainly a favorable omen!

Totality was one of those hanging moments: at two-and-a-half minutes, a brief midpoint of the event; yet within the darkness the everything holds its breath in an otherworldly pause (now that I think about it,  it was reminiscent of Frodo putting on the ring and seeing the Eye staring back at him…).

And then the liminal moment ended.  The process reversed, as the crack in the sky expanded, the air brightened, and my awareness returned.  For, I realized, in the darkness all my senses narrowed to the view of the corona. I had planned to listen for songbirds ceasing their calls, or for  night insects taking up theirs. Did the loggers put down their tools as the sky went black?  Were the clouds on the horizon still lit?  I couldn’t tell you. I have a memory of the cool air, but apart from a bit of conversation there was nothing but the blackened sun and the camera I used to record it.

Now that the key minutes of the two-plus hour event were done… I must confess, we didn’t hang around.  After five minutes of appreciating the waxing crescent, I asked how long he wanted to stay.  He replied “as long as you want to,” which I took to mean “take your time, but I’m good.”  So, we packed up in the still-filtered light, and joined the long southward caravan of folks who came for the totality.

In the week since the eclipse, it  hasn’t completely left my thoughts; I am curious how, or if, the event eventually settles into my consciousness; with it be a check on a bucket list, or will it be one of those memories I carry after many others have fallen to obscurity?   I know people who scoff at all the fuss about the eclipse.  One older gentleman watched the proceedings on TV, and found it to be faddish and silly.  I’ll admit that, had I been immersed in the party atmosphere of many of the televised gatherings, I’d be tempted to agree.  But I took a road less traveled, and stood with my son, alone and quiet and open to the world.  At that place and in that brief, stretched moment, the sun and moon performed their glorious pas de deux for us alone.

Manicured vs. Unruly

Autumn is my favorite season, but I’ve come to appreciate spring.  From my office – an old house turned into a biologist’s workspace – I can step out and feel the breeze which rustles the boughs of red cedars, holly, dogwood and pine.  The wildlife management area that I work from was originally put together by a wealthy individual as a bobwhite quail preserve.  Right around the living quarters of the place, it looks positively park-like.  Or rather, the front is park-like, with dogwoods, oaks, stately pines and various shrubs on a close-mown lawn.  On the back side, one finds tall pines, waving brown broomsedge, and a profusion of forbs and grasses – very natural for the area.  Quite a contrast, between manicured nature and its freer aspect!


The tame side is managed with a riding mower; when ice or wind scatters limbs across the lawn or pavement, a front-loader comes around to collect them and neaten up the place.  Here one finds close-cropped grass and what forbs that manage to raise their flowers no more than a couple of inches (bluets being a common one).


The wild side is managed less intensively, yet (to me) more agreeably.  Every other March, a low fire licks across the pine needles, fallen limbs and broomsedge.  Within a few weeks, green colors the blackened ground, and by Fall the golden grasses wave in the wind again.  I can kneel and with outstretched hands touch a dozen different species coexisting in the noonday sun.  And it is here and not the lawn where I hear bobwhites and see the leavings of rabbits and other critters.

I have friends who are fastidious when it comes to well-manicured, carpet-like lawns.  For some, the yard-carpet is a point of pride, while others mow only because of neighborhood peer pressure.  Some people water, fertilize, and herbicide their yards in exacting regimens in much the same way as a chef mixes his artisan masterpiece, all to reach the ultimate goal: a short, thick carpet comprised of a single species of grass and nothing else.  I never bought into the yard-as-hobby.  I have several grasses and a score of different forbs within my bawn.  For the most part, survival in that unwatered sand earns a spot, although mowing is deemed necessary to discourage venomous intruders.

I grant that there are times and places when it is in our interest to lay a heavy hand on the land.  But the artificiality of close-cropped turf and sharp-cornered hedges pleases me not half so much as the rustle of rabbits and fox squirrels hidden behind a broomsedge curtain.